I've been killing my dreams. This blog post from Paulo Coehlo was saddening, inspiring, and all together the wake-up call that I needed. The part that really struck a cord with me was the following:
The first symptom of the process of our killing our dreams is the lack of time. The busiest people I have known in my life always have time enough to do everything. Those who do nothing are always tired and pay no attention to the little amount of work they are required to do. They complain constantly that the day is too short. The truth is, they are afraid to fight the Good Fight.
When I felt busy, productive, and happy, I had time for everything! But this year I really shut myself away from the world, thinking a half-hearted effort would get me closer to my goals. This is NOT the case, and I knew it. This whole year I didn't have time for anything, because I always felt the need to "decompress." I was definitely scared of the Good Fight. So before I got anything worthwhile done, I had to pack up my lunch for the following day and go to sleep. I've been miserable all year and have no accomplishments for 2010.
Oh yeah, and I failed the CFA exam - I didn't feel too bad about it, but I do plan on taking it in December. And yes, I have started studying! I also didn't do well in my first grad school course, but I plan to do better for the fall. Thinking like an undergrad is not cutting it at all. Still scared, but willing to fight and win.
Enough with the moping and TMI - I am going to prepare some beauty posts this weekend! I haven't haven't been cured from my beauty-junkie-itis.
btw, I took that photo in Le Jardin Exotique in Eze, France. One of the best photos that I have ever taken.
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